just to blog

i'm posting just to get something up here, it's been so long.

i'm pretty stressed out... brooks lost his job less than two weeks ago, actually on his birthday, november 26. i really took it in stride at first, i sort of always had it in the back of my head that he could lose his job at any time. he had been discontent there for a long time but couldn't bring himself to quit and find something else. his overal lack of motivation really showed in his performance, therefore he ended up getting fired.

anyway, so, i always had these contingency plans in the back of my head if he lost his job what we would do. and of course, i knew i'd have to actively seek new clients for my commercial cleaning company (green clean). brooks' former boss has been awesome in that regard. i clean the building that he owns, and he personally contacted some other building owners that he knows and referred my services. he is amazing. i've delivered a proposal to one of those referrals so far, and hope to hear from one of the others. i've just got to focus on getting one at a time though.

like i said, i took it in stride at first. but now i feel like i'm running out of reserves. being a mom and running a household is more than a full-time job in itself. now i'm in charge of planning and preparing every meal for us, we used to eat out quite often. plus i am trying to encourage brooks in his plans for finding a new career path and help him to get healthy. he has been dealing with some major health problems lately. on top of all that i also have this business to manage which seems to have had a lot of little problems coming up. i'm way behind on paperwork and am in dire need of an office day without rhys whining for my attention.

when it comes to the end of the day, after i get rhys put to sleep, i just feel wiped and am pretty much ready to sleep myself. the dishes from dinner sit dirty, toys are scattered on the floor, the trash stinks and needs to be taken out.

i do get a lot done every day, it's just that my recently doubled daily tasks leave very little time for the other periodic items whch are piling up. tomorrow morning, it all starts again. when am i going to get a breath of air?